Enjoy Life and Pamper yourself more =)

I feel Happy today =)

Went to an event, "Chic Pop by Recharge" at Bijou, Mont Kiara!

A nice place to hang out, a relaxation place.

Feel like to stay over there, but it's too high class!

At least I won't feel emo after the event!

Emo is the most scary one, you wouldn't know what will be happened next!

If he/she thinks negatively, definitely they'll go wrong!

I couldn't imagine how worst is the consequences.

3 ways probably will help!

First, Cry!

Cry out loud as you could!

Second, Speak!

Speak it out to your friend!

Third, Sing!

Sing out loud!

That's me!

I used to cry alone whenever I feel emo.

Then will try to speak it out with besties.

Or ask besties out to Sing K, sing tilL voiceless!

There are so lots of activities over there.

But can't manage to try all.

I just tried manicure and went for palm reader.

What the palm reader said was true.

That's so amazing when heard what she said.

She gave me some confidence.

**~Enjoy Life, Pamper yourself more~**

Time to improve myself, and I meant it =)

Oh NO! E.M.O again?

空虚的心灵再度浮现。刚才喝茶时，说着说着，2度湿了眼眶。也许他们总会说，“看，emo pattern又来了”。也许只有我才能真正地了解那所谓的空虚。他们总会认为我又是为爱而emo！说真的，的确是。但是，他们并不了解而抹杀了我emo的一切。对于有市场的他们往往很少尝到那空虚的感觉。久而久之，没有人再对我说意见，觉得为爱这小事太无聊了。身边的朋友真的能聊心事真的很少，再来，再好的朋友也会听到烦。所以，选着了封口不说。总是以一个开心果在朋友们面前说笑，所以他们也很少察觉到我那忧伤的一面。自然而然，他们却忽略了问候我的心。我也很愧疚地说，那位无辜的傻婆总是我的聆听者和出气筒。Emo，这不是我想要的。我真的不想让别人认为我是那么懦弱，但却很不坚强的，又emo起来了。所以，带着微笑面具待人。当看到知己，却放肆的流泪。其实，我真的很想高高兴兴的过每一天，不想再那么emo！身边的她们也有了各自的伴，偶尔还会有护花使者或小苍蝇围绕着。是替他们高兴，但想一想自己，是多么悲惨和可怜，却连四分之一的苍蝇都没有！听他们说得很起劲，但自己也唯有笑笑，笑得满累的。这世界就那么以貌取人吗？难道肥婆就被淘汰吗？就连认识的男生也忽略了我的存在，悲哀啊！为什么他们的电话总是无时无刻的响个不停，我的电话好像停止了使用！听着他们诉苦说谁谁谁一直打电话给他们，让他们觉得很烦很怕看到谁谁谁的电话！为什么我却没有？算了，我已知道世界就是那么残酷！哭过就好了吧？为什么哭了还是再哭？我真的很怕有一天我会有忧郁症！我有那么悲惨吗？有好感的男生出现，也会无时无刻的告诉自己不能再让自己受伤害，不可以！在不知觉中，原来自己已自动启动了defence system！有时，都不敢相信男生说的话。无数次的伤害，最伤的是这次，但往往却是我自己伤害我自己！他是好人～但不属于我！原来争取自己的幸福是行不通的！

EmptineSsss

Again, nightmare! (>.<)" Why must every dream of mine is a bad dream? Why not a sweet dream? I'm seriously hurtin'...and my heart wasn't fully recovered yet! Why must everytime have to be awaken by those bad dream? Afraid to continue sleep...couldn't imagine what dream will it be when I close my eyes. I don't hope to be emo queen again! tryin' to hide those sadness deep inside, and tryin' to pretend as cheerful as I could. tryin' to lock my heart from others...and even warn myself not to fall in love again! I wonder,"Would I become Insane or Psycho one day?"

That day, I dream of myself being alone! What he said inside the dream was really hurt! And I cried till awake from the dream! The dream kinda real...even my tears was still rollin inside my eyes. Am I the one couldn't accept myself or others? Where's my confidence all? They're gone far away from me! Am tryin' to beg them come back to me, but still...my heart was so empty! And I found out that there's nobody there for me when I need CARE! Feel to HUG someone badly especially when my heart is so empty (~.~)

回忆还是温热的

但承诺已经冷却了

我的天真在泪水里沉沦

孤独它让我无法负荷

不用假装还爱着

舍不得还是放开了

我的天真早就摔成遍地的忐忑

失去了所有顔色

这次我真的痛了

真的彻底醒了

我试着洒脱

换来的只是伤痕

我爱到痛了

你却留下我一个人

埋葬我的天真

还能够说些什么

当快乐已经掏空了

我的天真早就碎成遍地的忐忑

努力平凑着 却再也无法完整

这次我真的痛了

真的彻底醒了

我试着洒脱

换来的只是伤痕

我爱到痛了
你却留下我一个人

埋葬我的天真

我哭的累了

没有梦是好的

别再说爱我

你给的全是悔恨

我爱到痛了

你却留下我一个人

埋葬我的天真

:: 天真 by 弦子 ::

Am just an ordinary girl who is easily to get hurt and no confidence, because of my appearance! And I hate myself...being so easy to cry! Already 22nd, but still easy to drop my tears...even writing this post! I think zhi already get bored with my tears! haha =) Yellin' for a man who can treat me well and cure my sadness...LOL...he's still FAR AWAY!